this is all we'll ever be

i had the most meaningful friday of the year today. i completed two whole math tutorials at math tuition today. (OMFGX) then i erm spent 15 bucks cabbing home from hougang. hence i concluded that hougang and marine parade are equidistant from my house.

today after school i talked to my civics tutor. she described me in three words. playful. pampered. blur. i'm human i have feelings too okay sob. but what started off as a really serious conversation about my grades (and university!) somehow turned out into both of us laughing (?) maybe it's because i was telling her how my mom didnt scold me about my results but instead is in the process of getting me a tutor for every subject...............

i didnt eat lunch and dinner today. then i had KFC at clementi with serene at 10pm. oh we are such heartlanders. i bet i lost the weight i was supposed to gain from all that fried chicken because she made me laugh so hard. oh serene i love chew so much. she remembers all my likes and dislikes (and according to television/media that's the epitome of a perfect lover HAHA) i keep sacrificing myself for serene. walking her to the mrt station even though i was risking myself getting raped HAHA. and how i pretend to be in love with CAH just to cover up for her. oh how noble i am.

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it's such a pity you don't talk about all the pain that you hide inside of you.
we're losing our sense of direction, will this oxygen last forever?

"ness why are you so weird?" i've been getting this question a lot lately.
"ness are you drunk?" when i have a conversation online.