damn, this is gonna hurt

hello world. besides me not being able to sleep well, i've been a okay. i've been walking around school like a zombie (eye bags, dark eye circles) and i deserve a trophy because i went to school almost everyday. almost. however, i cannot believe im just settling for okay, but lincoln says okay is better than nothing. thank you for all the babies who have been constantly checking up on me, and winson for calling me this morning in school to ask me "NESS AH WHY YOU SO TROUBLESOME?" it really cheeeeery-ed up my day :D thank you for being such a father figure.

and not only that, i have been trying to open up more and letting more people from school into my life. i dropped my econs to h1 because i screwed my midyears up. >:( i am affected no matter how calm i may have seemed. because i dont see how complaining about it will make the grades better. hmm, and i also have found out about how various people have been having secret XXX fantasies about me............. okay! let's not go into that.

i'm basically just trying to cope with everything that's going on in my life right now. i'm struggling, not floating. but if i scream underwater, i'll choke. i've learnt so much about how i am gradually taking after my mom. good? bad? i don't know. what i want most out of my life right now, is to quickly get married and have kids. (Y)

yes, that's the old ness for you, always dreaming of having kids.
have a good weekend babies! :-)
be strong, heavy heart. be strong. you dont really have a Choice.

the weight is a gift.
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