the only thing we share is the same sky

Well, joke me something awful, just like kisses on the necks of best friends.
We're the kids who feel like dead ends.
And I want to be known for my hits, not just my misses.
I took a shot and didn't even come close.
At trust and love and hope.
And the poets are just kids who didn't make it,
And never had it at all.

And the record won't stop skipping.
And the lies just won't stop slipping.
And besides my reputations on the line.
We can fake it for the airwaves.
Force our smiles, baby, half dead,
From comparing myself to everyone else around me.

Please put the doctor on the phone, because I'm not making any sense.

Blame everyone but me for this mess.
And my back has been breaking from this heavy heart.
We never seemed so far.
I'm hopelessly hopeful. You're just hopeless enough.
But we never had it at all.

tonight altec lansing will play the saddest song ever.
tonight my hands and knees will bleed from all my prayers.
tonight i will stop believing in temporary highs.
i'm so tired of this smile that even i dont recognize.

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my sister used to tell me that everyone deserves a second chance, but not everyone gets that second chance. right now i'm hanging on tightly to this sinking ship and i'm begging for a second chance. i will cry the saddest tears but blood will come out of my eyes, i will scream louder than a baby but no one will hear me. maybe i'm just built this way. i wont sleep because waking up to a brand new day would be the next scariest thing after losing you. oh wait, how can i lose something i never had.

p.s. thank you jingwen and weifen for helping to lug my shopping bags around.