Does this darkness have a name?

lately i've been really into packing the mess on my desk. so many old photographs and birthday/christmas wishes. i found my colorsplash. must. use. it. lately i've been just devoid of any emotion. the nightmares are back again. i dont know what to do with myself right now. i feel so awkward. a very unproductive night of studying. i sleep too much in the afternoons. i think my dad is trying to redeem himself. lately i get very antisocial when i'm home. i dont want to talk to anyone except my bears (ok i'm kidding)

destination LA: to take pictures with donald duck.

tonight i've fallen and i can't get up. i cant sleep, i cant think of you tonight.

xxx