You know I want to leave so badly. So so badly. But I think the main reason is that I'm really scared. I scared of being left behind, hence I want to be the first to leave. In a matter of just one month, I'll probably have my future all mapped out in a letter bearing good news. And finally I don't have to live with this skepticism of myself.. how I am not smart enough, not capable enough, not attractive enough. But if I don't get that letter.. I'm down to Plan B. And no one ever likes carrying out their Plan Bs.. why settle for second best when you could have settled for the best.

If only you were Good Enough.