I love all religions, but I only believe in one.
Today at work my boss tried to brainwash me into Buddhism again. The last time didnt count because I was intoxicated with expensive wine. This time - it was the last straw. Let's see.. she drew out the whole hierarchy system that Buddha taught her.. hell, ghosts, animals, humans, asuras and heavens. She told me that Jesus is in one of the 33 realms of heaven, but she heard that he is in one of the lowest ones.. She told me that going to church is just a form of socializing, and Christians are crazy fanatics who despise every religion except their own. She asked me to give her proof, proof that all Christians go to heaven. "You think it's so easy to go to heaven?" She questioned if God is that great, why did he create the poor the rich the stupid the smart? Why didnt he create us as Lee Kwan Yew's child.. why didnt he bless us with an abundance of wealth. She believes that I am working under her for a reason.. and that my 'karmic seed' has ripened and it's time for me to explore Buddhism and not follow blind faith. She thinks what I'm doing for her Buddhist association now will generate good merits and karma and because of that, I wont be an animal in my next life. Her point is, she wants me to join the next retreat and observe the Five Precepts (?) and Noble Silence (?) and meditate to see into my past life. For all I know, I could have been her sister in the 1800s.
To be honest, I dont even know why I typed all of this out. I wished I had the strength to fight back and stand up for my God, but I used what's left of my strength to fight back my tears. Tonight I will pray in tongues and I will stop the condemnation. As crazy as it sounds, I can't quit because I know how much my boss needs me to do her shit, so I'd rather do her work for free.. I mean, it'll only take me 1hour since I must admit that I'm pretty damn efficient.
This is a nightmare. However I am not angry at her. All I want to do is pinch her nephew's fat chubby cheeks til he says Vanesa JieJie is #1.
I.AM.IN.JAIL.
Today at work my boss tried to brainwash me into Buddhism again. The last time didnt count because I was intoxicated with expensive wine. This time - it was the last straw. Let's see.. she drew out the whole hierarchy system that Buddha taught her.. hell, ghosts, animals, humans, asuras and heavens. She told me that Jesus is in one of the 33 realms of heaven, but she heard that he is in one of the lowest ones.. She told me that going to church is just a form of socializing, and Christians are crazy fanatics who despise every religion except their own. She asked me to give her proof, proof that all Christians go to heaven. "You think it's so easy to go to heaven?" She questioned if God is that great, why did he create the poor the rich the stupid the smart? Why didnt he create us as Lee Kwan Yew's child.. why didnt he bless us with an abundance of wealth. She believes that I am working under her for a reason.. and that my 'karmic seed' has ripened and it's time for me to explore Buddhism and not follow blind faith. She thinks what I'm doing for her Buddhist association now will generate good merits and karma and because of that, I wont be an animal in my next life. Her point is, she wants me to join the next retreat and observe the Five Precepts (?) and Noble Silence (?) and meditate to see into my past life. For all I know, I could have been her sister in the 1800s.
To be honest, I dont even know why I typed all of this out. I wished I had the strength to fight back and stand up for my God, but I used what's left of my strength to fight back my tears. Tonight I will pray in tongues and I will stop the condemnation. As crazy as it sounds, I can't quit because I know how much my boss needs me to do her shit, so I'd rather do her work for free.. I mean, it'll only take me 1hour since I must admit that I'm pretty damn efficient.
This is a nightmare. However I am not angry at her. All I want to do is pinch her nephew's fat chubby cheeks til he says Vanesa JieJie is #1.
I.AM.IN.JAIL.
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