the first step to recovery is admiting you have a problem

i've been through so much the past six months. right now i am exhausted. and i dont want to fight it anymore. i want to walk away from everything and everyone. i am tired of thinking, and hoping.. hope is all we'll ever have. Nothing more, nothing less. i have not been in a happy place at all. i have these high expectations of everyone and everything.. and big dreams for myself. but what's the point when nothing's ever going to cut it?

you have no idea how many times i begged for liberation. wished so hard just to be Content and not want anything else that is out of my reach. just like how ugly betty's happy with her life even though we all know she's unattractive, prissy and annoying. yea, i always wanted to be just like her.

i'm sad that i'm too practical to be delusional.