Okay. After spending the whole night clearing my head... this has got to be it.
I was accused by my sister for being selfish to want to go to BU. But doesn't that mean she's being selfish too, making me compromise my dream? Neither is she giving it a chance even though BU exceeds SMU's standards by... ten million times. Bottom line- she doesn't want me to go because that would mean my dad won't get her a car. What the fuck?!
My other sister.. is at a little island in Michigan where her blackberry won't detect any signal and her only transport around the area is by horse carriages. So... let's just not talk about her opinions.
My mom.. is thrilled that I got into SMU (ignoring the fact that I didnt get in through my own merit) and for the 2nd time in my life, she congratulated me. I just screamed at her "I AM NOT HAPPY AT ALL!!!!!" What a brat. But me and my mom really don't hit it off that well.. I'm not even ready to tell her that daddy submitted the BU deposit for me and put me on business class to London this summer- because she'll just hate me even more. To be honest, I'm not even a big fan of all this different classes on the plane. If there was a class lower than economy.. hell yeah put me on it. As long as I get to my destination in one piece.. I'm pretty satisfied. I'm not like a supersize fatass so I wouldnt need the extra space anyway.
Back to my point, my dad is the only one who supports my decision. But right now he's just too busy to involve himself in all this drama (real people have important things to do, unlike in The Hills).. and if he deicdes not to let me go I'll make sure I make it damn clear that it's the worst decision he's ever going to make and he's a murderer of not only my dreams, my future, my happiness but also my life.
I don't know if I'm too young to say this.. but if my whole family is against the idea of me going to BU, I'd rather take out a student loan right now and spend the next 20 years of my life repaying it. I mean, even though my dad can afford to send me there.. I refuse to wear these chains of guilt and condemnation.
I was accused by my sister for being selfish to want to go to BU. But doesn't that mean she's being selfish too, making me compromise my dream? Neither is she giving it a chance even though BU exceeds SMU's standards by... ten million times. Bottom line- she doesn't want me to go because that would mean my dad won't get her a car. What the fuck?!
My other sister.. is at a little island in Michigan where her blackberry won't detect any signal and her only transport around the area is by horse carriages. So... let's just not talk about her opinions.
My mom.. is thrilled that I got into SMU (ignoring the fact that I didnt get in through my own merit) and for the 2nd time in my life, she congratulated me. I just screamed at her "I AM NOT HAPPY AT ALL!!!!!" What a brat. But me and my mom really don't hit it off that well.. I'm not even ready to tell her that daddy submitted the BU deposit for me and put me on business class to London this summer- because she'll just hate me even more. To be honest, I'm not even a big fan of all this different classes on the plane. If there was a class lower than economy.. hell yeah put me on it. As long as I get to my destination in one piece.. I'm pretty satisfied. I'm not like a supersize fatass so I wouldnt need the extra space anyway.
Back to my point, my dad is the only one who supports my decision. But right now he's just too busy to involve himself in all this drama (real people have important things to do, unlike in The Hills).. and if he deicdes not to let me go I'll make sure I make it damn clear that it's the worst decision he's ever going to make and he's a murderer of not only my dreams, my future, my happiness but also my life.
I don't know if I'm too young to say this.. but if my whole family is against the idea of me going to BU, I'd rather take out a student loan right now and spend the next 20 years of my life repaying it. I mean, even though my dad can afford to send me there.. I refuse to wear these chains of guilt and condemnation.
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