i can't sleep, i can't think of you tonight.

i always wondered how it is humanely possible for love to hurt so much. when i look back, i always thought the cliche one liners "the person you love, will hurt you the most" was just another cheesy emo line. then i met you.

our love was louder than words. i don't even know how to describe it. i have loved you selflessly, not expecting anything in return. you're the first thing i think about when i wake up in the morning, and the last when i go to bed at night. i know this isn't just any other puppy dog love story, because no one's presence has ever made me so at ease. i can't even imagine my life without you.. even though we don't even see each other everyday. but the thought of not having you a phone call or text message away, just scares me.

the truth is i can't live with this insecurity anymore. somehow i feel like i'm never enough for you. i don't want to cry til i'm dizzy every night anymore, i don't want to go on with my life.. wondering why you arent next to me anymore. love isn't supposed to hurt this much. our relationship's at this standstill, and it really isn't going anywhere. right now, it really doesn't seem like you need me in your life at all.. not as much as i need you.

you filled this empty heart with so much love, only to drain it into nothingness.

i can't sleep, i can't think of you tonight.